December 14th @ Jimmy’s Seaside

We got kicked out for being drunk and disorderly and didn't even play. We are awesome.

Show in CT Tonight!

Hey everybody!

We're playing tonight with our good friends Victor Bravo, The Stick and Noxzilla at Jimmy's Seaside in Stamford CT. We'd love to see you if you're around, please stop by and say hi. :)

8 PM, December, 14 2007 at Jimmy's Seaside
891 Cove Road, Stamford, Connecticut
Cost : $5

Happy Holidays!

Here's to the end of another great year my friends. We have one last show in Connecticut, Friday, December 14th at Jimmy's Seaside in Stamford Connecticut and then we're going on a little break to get ready for the rock of 2008! Stay tuned...

December 1st @ Trash Bar, 2007

When I made my way into the back with the pizzas, make-up half done, gear unloaded, I was so happy to see so many people that I love and adore. One by one everyone showed up to the already packed room and it felt so nice to see everybody and have a chance to relax.

The MP Project went on first and man were they good. Solid rock and roll, nice and loud and danceable. And of course Demetra rocked after us. I've said this before and I'll say it again, Demetra is my favorite New York band besides us. They are SO much fun to watch, so much fun to dance to, I love Jaime's voice, I love watching everybody, Jaime, Danny, Mike and Federico. I love them all and feel really lucky and grateful that I know them. Thank you guys, for playing, for chillin' and for just being the amazing people you are.

Now, as some of you may have noticed we have a different rhythm section. About that, I just want to say first and foremost that Ryan and Saysha are some of my favorite people and I love them both to death. As with all great things, (and great people,) circumstances change and we had to go our separate ways. No hard feelings, no yelling matches, nothing personal. We are all still friends and I have to say that I feel really lucky and grateful for both of them and our experiences together.

Tonight was our second show with Kenny and Derek, two guys we picked up from Staten Island. They're awesome! (And cute too, right Isabelle?) Last weekend we had a "practice" show at Southpaw, (which was excellent by the way, as the four people who showed up can attest to! *grin*) I've got to give these boys props, we've been rehearsing together for about two weeks and in that time they learned a 14 song set and played two shows. Pretty impressive, right?

So last night, what can I say about last night's show? I was nervous. I'm always nervous. But when I sang Basket Case for my sound check and the whole room went silent I was in awe. I knew this was going to be a great night. It already was, but I knew it was just going to get better.

We opened with a mini version of Dark Side, "Changes happen so fast, leaving worlds behind, poetry meant to last, but the bright side is blind," then kicked straight into Guiltless. Then some old favorites with some new twists, (Without You and This Happens.) Untitled was our only new, new song this time. It's about 30 seconds long (not even,) and John played it on guitar for me. It goes like this, "Somewhere out there sits a boy, looking for a girl. All he wants is what she has, all he needs is her. In a quiet room she waits, in her bed she finds, something missing, stars uncrossed, he's all her dreams combined. That which you want, also wants you." That's been my anthem this year and it makes me feel so much better because it reminds me that when things are right, they are right for everyone. Beautiful really.

We broke into our cover of Santeria about halfway through. Kenny and Derek knew that one, (it happens to be my favorite Sublime song because I like to think that he really says, "I don't practice An-der-ea," which doesn't make any sense, I know, but I don't care.) And in the interest of fairness John and I decided that considering Derek and Kenny had to learn 10 songs, we should have to learn at least one. And there it was. John picked up that solo in 3 days. Not bad, eh?

All in all, I had a GREAT time, I thought it sounded amazing and I just had so much fun with the boys and with all of you. I want to thank everyone warmly and sincerely from the bottom of my heart for coming out. Thank you for dancing and for singing and Joseph, you get extra special props for being the loudest person there. :) This show has become a tradition that I really look forward to and I already can't wait for next year.

Until then, enjoy yourselves and your family as we say hello and good-bye to yet another year. Happy holidays everybody!

Set List:
-Dark Side (solo version)
-Guiltless
-Without You
-This Happens
-Consider Me Gone
-Half Here
-(Untitled)
-Who We Are
-Falling Stars
-Santeria
-Not That Bad
-Don't Look Back
-Try So Hard
-Stuck In My Head

October 16th @ Trash Bar, CMJ

I just realized yesterday that I never wrote about our CMJ show. First, my apologies to EVERYONE, I thought we were going on at 10:30, not 11, not 11:30... to all those who came and left, I completely understand. To all those who stayed, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Speaking of which, the front row guys- you, YOU are the best ever. Not only were you so into into but you sang along!!! If I could explain how cool and awesome that is, I'd be a much more articulate person. :)

In honor of CMJ we decided to do a longer set this time, which for us is about 30 minutes. (Thank god considering we were running over an hour behind schedule.) It was fun- we played some new stuff, the usuals, and a never before played "Helpless," which I think went pretty well.

That's all I have to say for now. I have to get to class. Please join us next time at Trash Bar on December 1st for our Annual Holiday Party. This year we'll be performing with Mike Pacheco Project and Demetra and we are PSYCHED! Party, open bar and Mike Pacheco start at 8, Stewart and Demetra go on at 9 and 10 respectively. Please come early and enjoy the festivities. We can't wait to see you!

Until next time...

Set List:
-This Happens
-Without You
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Half Here
-Consider Me Gone
-Adaptation
-Helpless
-Not That Bad
-Leave Me Here
-Try So Hard
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head

Stewart Rocks CMJ!!!

We're playing CMJ! Huzzah!

10:30 PM October, 16 2007 at Trash Bar
256 Grand St. (between Driggs and Roebling), Brooklyn, New York 11211
Cost : $6

With:
Runaway Diamonds 7:30 PM
Death of Jason Brody 8:30 PM
Harris Trucks 9:30 PM
Thrushes 11:30 PM

For more info, please visit their website:
http://www.thetrashbar.com/
http://www.cmj.com/marathon/music.php

September 26th @ Knitting Factory

Wednesday. My day off. Sort-of. My day to do Stewart stuff, and on this day my Stewart stuff is to get ready for our show. I have all these rituals before shows, not like some people, but I like to take my time getting ready and this Wednesday was no different. I started it off by watching the Season Premier of House. (RAH! Wilson is the fucking bomb!) Then cleaned the kitty boxes. (So not RAH! Boo.) Then all the primping, etc. I barely had time to warm up, which was sad, but so it goes. Then biscuits and gravy. Mm... biscuits...

John and I grabbed the gear from the space and booked it downtown. There was a line out the door- not to see us of course, but it was still nice to see a line out somebody's door. It's good to know that people still go see shows on Wednesdays.

It was wicked early. We unloaded then went off to pick up pizza. I decided at the last second that I wanted to give out free pizza at this show. Just because. We all deserve it. It only managed to feed the bands and the first 5 or 10 people there, but still. At least it was something.

One by one everyone arrived. The Steinways, Lost Locker Combo, the pop punk kids, all our friends, everyone. It was so nice to see everybody and because we put together the whole night and there was nothing to worry about, it was also so nice to get to actually hang out and talk to everybody before hand! Seriously! I love seeing you guys, especially before I'm all frazzled and rocked out.

The Steinways were awesome as usual. Lost Locker Combo were just so impressive. I mean, what other band can you see perform and leave without a shirt on, covered in water, silly string, and chocolate? Saysha and Mark and I danced the shit out of that dance floor with Alexander and Brook. We started a mosh pit during LLC, like we do, and it was just so much fun. I was so tired, but it was so worth it. Did you guys have fun too? I hope so, I felt so bad, I stepped on SO many people! Sorry!

I've been looking forward to this show for a while now (as you all know,) just because it was our first real pop punk show where all the bands were specifically choosen by me, based on what I love about music- silly, funny, loud, fast, and awesome awesome tunes. This kind-of music reminds me why I love to be alive, or that I love to be alive more precisely. It was good stuff.

We had a whole new set in honor of the occassion. It was also Saysha's birthday (actually, her birthday was Thursday, but this was her unofficial party,) and we all sang to her during the break. Happy birthday Saysha!!! Happy golden year! We also debuted Leave Me Here with the whole band and this time I didn't mess up all the chords. Ha ha! I love that song. As sad as it is, it makes me so happy.

Thank you so much to everybody! I was going to list everybody separately, (or at least I started to,) but there were just too many people- so thank you ALL! I can't believe I'm so lucky to know so many fucking awesome people. Even though I don't know you all that well, I feel like I will one of these days. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

This was actually the best show I've had in a while. Only because of all of you. I mean, seriously, it's fun to play and all, but it's life affirming to play to a room full of your favorite people. You guys are all so great, the music was all so amazing, I just really felt like a part of something. And I can't thank you enough, but I'll try anyway. Thank you, thank you, thank you. You are all so wonderful and I love you.

Until next time, keep on rockin' in the free world-

Set List:
-This Happens
-Try So Hard
-Falling Stars
-Don't Look Back
-Consider Me Gone
-Leave Me Here
-Not That Bad
-Adaptation
-No More Jealous Girlfriends
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head

Check out these crazy awesome photos by Green Andy. (Thanks Andy!!!)

CMJ Showcase Show @ Trash Bar

Make sure to come see us Tuesday, October 16 at The Trash Bar in Brooklyn. It is the first night of the CMJ Music Marathon and we would like to see you rockin' out in front while we play!

September 14th @ The Card Shop

In August Saysha and I went to a BBQ in the Bronx at the Crafty Records house where we met a ton of really really really awesome people, one of which is a singer/songwriter named Brook Pridemore, another of which is a guy named Dan who owns Crafty Records. When they asked us if we would be the band at their Card Shop show, we were honored!

If you haven't been to City Island in the Bronx I highly recommend it. It's like another world; I don't even like the water and I thought it was beautiful. Saysha and Andrew and I got there first (Saysha was freshly back from her yoga weekend, and by freshly back I mean she had been home for about an hour,) but we didn't want to be the first ones there so we went to the end of the street to check out the view for a while. When Ryan pulled up we decided to make our presence known.

Dan and Reina had prepared dinner for everyone. It was delicious! They really know how to entertain. Little did I know that the only people there were the performers, so I felt like an idiot when I had to ask Paul who he was. Sorry about that Paul...

Brook and I went to get John and met everybody at the venue, Dan scored us a gallery called The Card Shop to play in. It was beautiful with art on the walls, a couple of big couches and a bathroom. He brough the PA and some speakers and we geared up our amps. Everything was just so nice and chill. It reminded me of the coffee houses I used to go to in high school. The fun awesome ones where all the local bands play and everyone is just so happy and into it. That's pretty much exactly what it felt like to me.

We played with Ivan Sandmore, Paul Baribeau, and Brook himself, funny because everyone else had a guitar and that's it, and there we were with our drums and amps and ear plugs. Ha ha! It's fun being the loud ones. But seriously, thank you so much to everybody who came out and danced- especially that kid in front- dude, I don't know your name, but you're awesome! Thank you so much!

If you like singer/songwriters, you definitely have to check these guys out. Ivan has such a beautiful voice. Ethereal almost. Paul blew me away, I swear. I spent all day Monday listening to his CDs. Brook too. He has this incredible ability to command a crowd. When we saw him at the BBQ he came out in the center of a ring of punk rockers with a beat up acoustic guitar, I so thought it was going to be disastorous, and he blew me away. He's so good! He asked everybody to come up and dance with him so Saysha and I did and it was awesome. I was singing his song the whole way home.

Anyway, that's all. It was a really fun show, parties are my favorite. Speaking of which, we have another one coming up this Wednesday, September 26th at The Knitting Factory- it's Saysha's birthday party! Yay!!! Please come. It's going to be lots and lots of fun, I promise.

Until next time...

Set List:
-Without You
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Try So Hard
-Consider Me Gone
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head

Knitting Factory NYC

Our next show is at the Knitting Factory (NYC) and we are playing with some really great bands, so do yourself a favor and get there on time. The show starts at 7:30p.m. and all the directions can be found on the KF website.

If you would like to purchase advance tickets, please use this link to Ticket Web

August 24th @ Trash Bar

Home. Ah home. It's so good to be home. Thank you SO SO SO much to everybody who came out to welcome us back!

Now, it's not that I was tired. I had plenty of time to rest for this show after our tour (plenty being a relative term) and I was AMPED! Especially, especially because we had our new BANNER! Yes, Stewart now has a banner. And a kick drum head. We're so dorky, I love it. :)

It's not that I was tired, but personally I was unprepared. Just because after getting home I just wanted to do a show where I didn't need to think or worry about anything. And Trash Bar was that show.

We get up on stage and eventually I get my guitar in tune, the set list drawn out, and Saysha and John were nice enough to adjust my amp for me. We kicked in with good ol' Without You and we were back with a vengence! It had been two months since we played New York and we brought it up a notch, I'd say.

The funny part was, right off the bat, at the very beginning of the first song, I think the first part of the first chorus when my lip touch the microphone I got zapped like you wouldn't believe. I don't know if you could tell from the audience, but from where I was standing the lights noticeably dimmed. Then when I touched John the same thing happened. Less so, but still.

6 times. I counted. I got shocked 6 times by the 4th song. Apparently Saysha and John were getting shocked when they touched each other too. Ah!!! It's funny, don't get me wrong, but distracting as all hell.

After Falling Stars I let everybody know what was going on and asked the sound guy if he had any suggestions:

"...switch on your amp?"
"Switch on my amp?"
"Is there a ground switch on your amp?"
"Oh. Yeah, probably. ... Oh yeah! Funny that. Oh, that's so much nicer, I can't even tell you. Thank you!"

Nice. Problem solved.

It was a glorious night, John's parents were there from Arkansas, and his Aunt from St. Louis, Ryan's friend Brian from Cyber Christ came, Demetra was there to rock out (check them out this Saturday at Luna Lounge!), Joe from Noisebin, Romeo of Strictly Platonic, Mark, Jacob, Leslee, Will, Abbie, Scott, Bill, Brook, Rich, The Anabolics, Andrew, all of our wonderful friends who are too numerous to list! We love you guys so much! Thank you, thank you, thank you for coming!

We missed you. We really did. It's so good to be home.

Set List:
-Without You
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Six Degrees
-Leave Me Here
-Try So Hard
-Consider Me Gone
-Adaptation
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head
-Saturday Night

August 18th @ Tritone

This was the longest leg. Detroit to Philly, no stops, rest for a couple of hours, then our last show. John was nice enough to DJ for me the whole way and after 7 hours or so just got silly and was playing all kinds of stuff: hip-hop from the early '00s, Poison (oh yeah,) and any number of random songs that I never would have thought of. Ryan and Saysha did their best to sleep. I made it most of the drive. I think we switched for the last leg at about 7 AM with an hour or so to go. I was super grumpy at that point. Actually, I don't think I was grumpy until we got to my parents' house and everyone woke me up. Grr! I don't like waking up! :)

We said hi to my Mom, I made everyone breakfast, then John and I went back to sleep. Do you see a theme? That must be boring to read but that's what tour is: drive, sleep, eat, play, drive, sleep, eat, etc. Not very exciting I'm afraid. I should have Ryan and Saysha write these bits since I was dead to the world. Can you guys fill in the blanks please?

From Saysha: While you were sleeping in Philly Ryan and I practiced yoga, (I was teaching him all week), got cheese steaks and reubens and Mallomars at the awesome Mrs. Marty's Restaurant.

Cheese steaks for lunch, Yum!

The festival was so eclectic. MC'd by Jeff of South Street Sounds and attended by all sorts of people (including Christian and Terri, Kim, Ryan's Dad and my aunt, thanks guys!) we were preceeded by a metal band, an acoustic folk act, and a Dave Matthew's type band.

The show rocked. I opened with a solo rendition of Not That Bad while we were setting up, we got cut short because everyone was running over, which was fine, we wanted to go home, but in the meantime there was lots and lots of rock. Jeff kept talking about how we were from New York and picking on New Yorkers and I said something like, "actually, 50% of us are from here... so yeah..." It was funny.

All in all it was a great fucking tour I'd say. You were all great, we had a blast, I think we rocked pretty hard the whole time, and it was funny because despite the fact that my diet, sleep and lifestyle got all messed up for a week, by the end of the tour I got my voice back. It was pretty fun. Lesson learned, when you're sick, drink whiskey and go on tour. The perfect remedy.

Set List:
-Not That Bad
-Dark Side
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Half Here
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head

August 17th @ Paycheck’s Lounge -by Saysha

Thursday night...Chicago to Detroit. Andrea hauled ass across the state of Michigan in seven hours, all hopped up on saltines and green tea. Ryan and I crashed in the back. I was dreaming of my Mom's house and all the good eats that we were promised. John did a good job keeping Andrea awake with iPod and conversation.

We arrived at my Mom's house in New Baltimore MI, which is a sleepy little lake town about 30 miles outside the city of Detroit. My Mom was super happy to see us. I was excited to be at my old house, but Andrea and John were exhausted, so they crashed in my old bedroom which is now the guest room, and Ryan and I went out with my family to the local diner to eat huge omelets and pancakes. PANCAKES!!!!!

Then we got back to the house and Ryan and I rode bikes all around my old neighborhood. It was really funny, just like it was when I was a kid, except a lot more fun now cause I'm a grownup person and not a pissed off kid anymore. There were kids selling lemonade on the street and the sky was blue and perfect and sunny.

Back at the house Ryan and I played Mario Brothers One, which is a lot harder than I remember, so we gave up and watched bad TV. Then Ryan took a nap and I read on the porch until the wasps bothered me too much. By this time Andrea and John were starting to get up and Ryan and I were now outside jumping on the ginormous trampoline that is in my Mom's backyard. Soon all four of us were on the trampoline. It is very hard to bounce on a trampoline with four people but we managed to have fun without killing each other.

It was almost dinner time. mom and dad made us steak and twice baked potatoes and corn! It was delicious. Ryan's piece of steak was as big as my head I swear. It was amazing. And he almost finished the whole thing. Even though it was bloody inside.

Around 5 o'clock my cousins showed up to party. We were running the set in my old bedroom, which was pretty surreal, but also one of those "beyond your wildest dreams" moments. When we were done we went to load the car again and mingle with the cousins. I really wanted to hang out at the house and play the show in the garage, but we had to go kick ass at Paychecks, which I've been dying to play since the days of my youth. So off in the car again to rock some more.

]When we got to Paycheck's we unloaded the van in the back. Ah, Hamtramck! The old stomping grounds! Hello urban blight! Hello crackheads! Hello Vernors in a can and everybody smokes like a chimney and I'm smoking even though I quit cause you can smoke ANYWHERE in Michigan.

Paychecks fucking rules. It's an old Polish Bar that is smoky with a pool table and Molson Ice on Draft with this huge ass stage which is as big as Luna Lounge. The sound is great, there is a 20,000 dollar lighting rig and SMOKE MACHINE. Very metal. All we needed was a mini Stonehenge and a bunch of dwarves prancing around it. (If you don't get that, please go rent Spinal Tap, come back and read this again....it will be funny.)

There was a slight misunderstanding about who would go on first but the staff at Paychecks really took care of us, once they heard that we had to drive 10 hours to Philly after the show. So we got to play first! Yay!

My family arrived as we set up. Nine o'clock rolled around, the light show started flashing, the fog machine fired up and we kicked off "Without You." Everyone was a little shy to get up and dance (the crowd consisted mainly of my underage cousins) but soon everyone was up in front rocking out. (Props to Jeff from Wool and Water for dancing and being awesome!)

After the show we managed to mingle, sell merch (with the help of my two lovely cousins Stacy and Stacy) break down, pack the van, take photos and say goodbye in under an hour. We hung out in the back alley of Paychecks with my family, who all seemed really excited and happy. My Mom was nice enough to give us gas money and peanut butter cookies. I got a couple cans of Vernors, one for me and one for Andrew when I got home. If y'all don't know the joy of Michigan ginger ale in a can, you haven't LIVED.

I was sad to leave but happy we could rock here and make such a nice memory. As we pulled away I broke out the homemade cookies and the Vernors. A fantastic way to end a great day.

Set List:
-Without You
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Half Here
-Try So Hard
-Consider Me Gone
-Guiltless
-Adaptation
-Stuck In My Head
-Saturday Night

August 16th @ Quencher’s

After 6 hours in the RAV we were hungry and looking forward to our $10 worth of free food and/or drinks which, turns out was a lie. $10 in drinks alone. N'yah! Curses! That was fine. It was 6. We went on at midnight, load in at 8. On the way in we passed a bar called "The Mutiny" with a sign in the window, "Band wanted, inquire within." Sweet! We can totally play a show before our show, can't we? Hells yeah! So John and I go in. I ask the pink haired, punk rock bartender, "Hey- I wanted to ask about the bands wanted sign. We're in a band. Can we play?" "Yeah, after you show me ID." Damn! What the hell is going on? It's fine, I don't mind, it's just funny. I give her my card and she gives me the schpeel- no slots open tonight I'm afraid. Ah well. Was worth a shot.

We broke up for dinner- John went for his usual checkin out the city walk, Saysha got some cheap Thai and almost got raped on the way back by a gang of locals, and Ryan and I parked it at the diner to keep an eye on our gear. I was still ridiculously sick at this point, so I thought I'd be gentle on my tummy with some soup and a burger. I saved my saltines for the ride that night.

After dinner Ryan and I went back to The Mutiny to give the cute girl our CD, but instead we found this big surly guy who looked just like the guy from Porky's. He was nice, he said, "Honestly, just keep your CD, I'm not gonna listen to it. Just call me when you're back in town." Nice.

Anyway. Loaded in, met the other bands, The Jagz were on first- they did about 50% covers? Or was it more? I'm the wrong person to ask about that but I was proud because I was the only one who knew the Power of Dreams song they sound checked to. Either way, they're a really rad band, drew a good crowd, kept everyone dancing and entertained. And their bass player was sick! In a good way sick. And their singer looked like David Hasselhoff, only cooler.

The Lusties were fantastic! I got spit on 3 times and slightly molested by Edie. Great songs, drunk and belligerent. Beautiful. But seriously they were the sweetest sweetest band and I just want to extend a warm and sincere thank you to them for hanging out, letting us use their gear and jump on the bill with them. If you can, check 'em out. It's worth it, I swear.

The stage was tiny but John still managed to make his rounds. I was really feeling that show, if only because I was in a great mood. Yay tour! We cut it a little short because we had a 6 hour drive ahead of us, but everyone was nice enough to request an encore. We did two. Not That Bad and when they asked for one more, "Come on! Even just 30 seconds!" we played No More Jealous Girlfriends. Killer.

Afterwards we packed up pretty quick, gots me some green tea and crackers and off we went, but more on that later...

Set List:
-Without You
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Try So Hard
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head
-Not That Bad
-No More Jealous Girlfriends

August 15th @ Bernie’s -by John

We woke up around ten in Pittsburgh. After repacking the car and eating we headed out for Columbus. On the drive there we kept ourselves entertained with my portable DVD player named Coby. We named him Coby because that is the brand of DVD player he is; pretty clever of us. We plugged him (Coby) in to the car stereo so we could all hear the same thing and watched "Harold & Kumar." Coby was good to us. He allowed us to laugh and have a good time with toilet humor and pot jokes while working his ass off to keep that disc spinning.

We arrived in Columbus at about 3 in the afternoon and went straight to my friend Oli's house to get our heads straight before the show that night. Oli wasn't at home so we walked up the street to find her in the craft store she owns and runs called Wholly Craft. This place rules. It's full of tons of handmade crafts for a million different tastes. Handmade shirts, skirts, wallets, photo albums, you name it.

She gave us the keys to her house and told us to make ourselves at home. On our way back we took a short detour up High St. to Kroger to get some eggs so we'd have something to eat the next morn. While we were there Ryan bought a sweet 3 piece Elvis Pez dispenser set for a friend of his. They were beautiful.

When we got to Oli's, Andrea got to work on some of the projects she had to get done for her job. Ryan, Saysha and I took Oli up on her offer to make ourselves at home and proceeded to thumb through her record collection in search of something enlightening. After finding Boston's first record and throwing that on we had an impromptu interpretive dance session. The perfect way to balance our heads before a show.

At about seven we left Oli's to go scope out the venue, Bernie's. This was the one stop on the trip we were a little unsure of because Bernie's had never technically got back to us with a confirmation on the show. When we got there we undertsood why. This was the most laid back little rock bar ever. The bartender was really nice and just told us to set up and play when the feeling was right. So easy. We took our time setting up our gear, including our kick ass custom Stewart kick drum and waited till we all felt comfortable enough to get started. My friend Chris Burney played a solo set before us which kicked ass. It was a Wednesday night and the bar was pretty slow (our huge Columbus following must not have heard we were playing, or thought it was on a different night!) but Chris was still cool enough to get up there and rock it for us.

Since the only people in the bar were us, three of my friends (thank you Oli, Sarah and Matt), and a couple of local punky lookin' kids we all just took over the bar. We had full control of the stage and pool table. Pretty kick ass, really. After we were all satisfied with our pool games and our respective buzzes, we decided to play. Columbus dared us to rock, and shit! did we rock. It was one of those nights we opened with Dark Side, so right off the "audience" could sense this show was something special. It was. We started in mean and loud and didn't stop until our encore, which was The Misfits "Saturday Night."

Set List:
-Dark Side
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Half Here
-Try So Hard
-Consider Me Gone
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head
-Saturday Night

August 14th @ Bloomfield Bridge Tavern

We didn't have a venue lined up. Or a show. I called Tommy and asked him if we could do a renegade show somewhere on the streets of Pittsburgh. We had to bring all our gear and I knew he had a generator, so I figured, why not?

He was all for it, went around to a bunch of local clubs asking if we could play, (the response to which was an overwhelming no,) but lost steam after one particular rejection that kind-of killed it for him.

So be it.

We got in at 9:15 or so, had some delicious chili and I decided it would be a good idea to do a solo show. Just because. "I'm playing Pittsburgh dammit!" We found a spot that was open and not too far, I called to make sure it was still going on,

"Yes, but it's 21 and over."
"Oh, that's no problem. Can I still sign up?"
"Uh... you sound underage."

Awesome. I love that even on the phone I can't sound like a grown up. :)

We loaded up the car, guitar, pedals, CDs, and made it over to the club. Pittsburgh is BEAUTIFUL. We got a little lost and drove around some hills, surrounded by trees, overlooking the river, and the bridges, and downtown. Seriously. Good stuff.

When we finally made it we couldn't have asked for a cooler crowd. Everyone was really drunk and happy and into everything. There was a four piece blue grass band on before us that was AWESOME! Mandelin, violin, banjo and guitar, with their friend Josephine dancing her heart out on stage. It was so fun and such good music- ending with a Brett Michaels tribute! Hilarious!

I'm really sick (as some of you heard before we left,) and I'm so glad we did this because when I started warming up outside, I realized... I couldn't really sing. ! It's ok, I got my voice loosened up a bit, (what's left of it,) and tuned my guitar. I was really nervous because I was by myself and my guitar sounded weird because it was plugged straight in, no distortion, no tuner, but everyone was so nice and so supportive.

John came up and played Guiltless with me. He was jumping around (as per usual,) and the guitar came unplugged halfway through the song. I started clapping the drum beat and everybody joined in until he was able to get it working again. It was beautiful.

I love Pittsburgh.

It was a gorgeous night all around, the perfect start to a great tour.

Remember, tell your friends, tell your family, we're hitting up the following cities in the next few days: Columbus, Chicago, Detroit, and Philadelphia. We're poor and can't do this very often so come get your Stewart fix while you still can!

Set List:
-Not That Bad
-Six Degrees
-Leave Me Here
-Guiltless

Buy a cd and get a FREE TATTOO!!

A temporary tattoo that is. Come to one of our shows and get inked up! Get your very own "S-heart" tattoo and be the envy of your friends, scare grandma, excite your lover AND look damn cool!
You don't have to buy a cd for a free tattoo but it would be awesome if you did! You do have to come to a show to get one though. Just putting that out there...

August TOUR!!!

Hello my friends!

We're going on tour again! Weee! :) This time we're going to be in Columbus, Chicago, Detroit, AND Philly. Please come visit. We miss you.

Details:
08/15/2007 9:00 PM, COLUMBUS
Bernie's
1896 N. High St.
Columbus, Ohio 43201

For more info please visit their website: http://www.cringe.com/bs/distillery.htm

08/16/2007 11:45 PM, CHICAGO
Quencher's
2401 N Western Ave
Chicago, Illinois 60647

For more info please visit their website: http://www.quenchers.com/

08/17/2007 10:00 PM, DETROIT
Paycheck's Lounge
2932 Caniff
Hamtramck, Michigan 48212

For more info please visit their website: http://www.paycheckslounge.com/ OR http://www.myspace.com/paycheckslounge.

08/18/2007 7:30 PM, PHILLY
The Tritone
1508 South St.
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania 19146

For more info please visit their website: http://www.tritonebar.com and http://www.sssounds.com/23.html

Existing At Extremes now available on iTunes!

You may now purchase our ep from the iTunes store.

Open the iTunes application first and click this link to visit our page in the iTunes store: Stewart

If you don't have iTunes you can download it for free from apple.com

You can also order via the links provided in the previous post. Check it out!

Thank you!!

Shout out to our CT friends!

Hey everybody!

We want to play in CT! Why? Because we're from there (sort-of) and we work there (sort-of) and we miss you and want to play for you and have lots and lots and lots of fun together. :)

Now, the only problem with this is finding a place to play. I just found out Husky Blues is closed (!) and Toad's and Webster's won't talk to me. Does anybody know of any venues that host pop punk bands? Parties, teen centers, I don't care, whoever will have us, we just want to play! Or other bands in the area that we could play with that would go with our sound?

Please let me know if you can think of anything. Even just lists of possible venues in our favorite towns (Danbury, New Haven, Hartford, Storrs... ) would be greatly appreciated. Thanks everybody!!! Talk to you soon...

Songs now available! (and more...)

Thank you everybody for all your support and kind words! We're really excited about our new CD and all the feedback has been really helpful. In answer to your questions, "Existing at Extremes" is available online at CDBaby.com and our A&R Select Store.

Individual songs are also available for download from our Myspace page or our A&R Select Store for $0.99 each. They should be available on iTunes soon. (Couple more weeks.)

For all those in New York City our new CD is available at Cake Shop Records, 152 Ludlow St. between Stanton and Rivington, or at any of our shows. (Next one is August 24th at Trash Bar!)

Please let me know if you have any problems. I will try to take care of everything as quickly as possible. Thanks again! Talk to you soon...

Private Parties

Just want to let everyone know that if anyone is looking for a band to play at their party Stewart is all for it! We LOVE to play private parties so if you're having one and you need some live music please please PLEASE don't hesitate to contact us. Thanks!

Songs now available for download! (and more...)

Hi everybody!

We now have songs available online! I'm yelling because I'm excited! :)

You can download Stewart songs direct from our Myspace page or visit our A&R Select store (where you will also find T-Shirts and CDs,) or visit CDBaby.com for a copy of our new EP.

Thank you so much for your support. We really appreciate it!

Private Parties

I just want to let everyone know that if anyone is looking for a band to play at their party Stewart is all for it! We LOVE to play private parties so if you're having one and you need some live music please please PLEASE don't hesitate to contact us.

Thanks!

Cake Shop show

We played a "secret" show at the Cake Shop in NYC last night that was nothing short of entertaining.

We played with two really great bands that you should check out:

The Ingenues

Screaming Females

Dear Cake Shop,
Invest in some new drum heads! They need to be changed something fierce.

Luna Lounge show

Thank you to all who came out and made our cd release party a success!

We all had a great time!

If you were unable to get a copy of our new ep that evening, you can get one here:
Existing At Extremes

June 24th @ Cake Shop

Thanks for coming out tonight guys! Especially after we just played 3 days ago, that was really sweet. Cake Shop could not be any more different than Luna Lounge and tonight was just supposed to be a fun show for all of us. (That includes you.) And I think it worked out ok.

We played some stuff we haven't played in a while, John broke a string, I played half the set with my fingernails after dropping and destroying two picks, Saysha couldn't really jump up and down or she would have hit the ceiling (but God bless her, she did her best) and Ryan had no incidents of which to speak. (That I know of anyway.)

We played with The Ingenues and Screaming Females. Good GOD they are good! Screaming Females are touring right now and they are just fucking incredible! I highly recommend both checking them out and buying their CD. It is awesome.

That's all I guess. Pretty fun night.

Also, if you're in the neighborhood and haven't had a chance to pick up a copy of "Existing at Extremes," there are now a few copies for sale at Cake Shop, at 152 Ludlow between Stanton and Rivington. Or if you're not in the neighborhood you can purchase individual songs or the whole album from our online store.

Thanks again everybody for coming out and dancing and being so supportive! We really appreciate it. Until next time...

Set List:
-Dark Side
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Real Dreams
-That Girl
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head

June 21st @ Luna Lounge

Wow. Last night was one of the best nights I've ever had. I had a BLAST! How about you? Did you have fun? I hope so. That was just ridiculous. :) Thank you so so so much for coming out! Thank you for coming out, thank you for supporting us, and thank you for being part of this incredible journey with us. I really do appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. That was so far the biggest turn out Stewart has ever had!

When John and I went to check out Luna Lounge last week, I was really awed and intimidated, but in a good way. "This place is HUGE!" I had NO idea it was going to be so big. We had a dressing room and a back stage entrance and everything. Kind-of like Mo Pitkin's, only it wasn't a bathroom/backline storage/closet, it was an actual room. Nice. That was kind-of fun. *grin*

I love Demetra. I want to play with them all the time, I can't even tell you. SO SO SO amazing. Not only do they have great songs, they are performers. I was so impressed and again, in so much awe, it was ridiculous. Don't be fooled, their myspace page does not do them justice.

This time we had a real merch table in honor of our real CDs run by one of our people, the lovely Ms. Leslee White, who, give the girl props, went all out and did a great job manning her post. Speaking of props, thank you to everybody who bought CDs!!! We really hope you like them! Feel free to let me know what you think of them. And thank you to the cuties who asked for autographs. You guys are sweet. :)

Oh, speaking of CDs, the deal with Jawbreaker is this: I made a bunch before we went to Ohio in April, but they weren't mixed yet. We got them mixed and I was making a bunch yesterday before the show but didn't have time to make new back covers with the updated track list. (We changed the song order.) So if you bought Jawbreaker and were wondering the actual track list is posted in the blog before this. It should automatically come up on your computer, but if it doesn't, don't worry, you can find it here. To the 12 people who bought Jawbreaker before last night, you have a very rare copy that no longer exists, please feel special. :)

Anyway, we're playing again this Sunday, June 24th at Cake Shop at 10:30 with: The Ingenues and Screaming Females. We've got another fun, silly set planned that is nothing like last night's show so you guys won't be bored. (*hint* Dark Side, That Girl, Real Dreams *hint*)

In other news we're working on our store front and Stewart merch will soon be available online for all our friends who live far far away. We also might be touring the Midwest in August. (I know, Florida, I know, I'm working on it, I promise. *grin*) More on that stuff later though. I'm tired and in dire need of a nap.

Until next time...

Set List:
-Without You
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back
-Falling Stars
-Six Degrees
-Who We Are
-Try So Hard
-Half Here
-Consider Me Gone
-Guiltless
-Stuck in My Head

Jawbreaker Track List

This is the actual track listing for Jawbreaker. Sorry for the inconvenience. :)

1. Consider Me Gone
2. Don't Look Back (Ice Scream Song)
3. Falling Stars
4. This Happens
5. Stuck In My Head
6. Guiltless
7. Half Here
8. Not That Bad
9. Never Again
10. That Girl
11. Try So Hard
12. No More Jealous Girlfriends

And there is lots of foul language, especially on "That Girl." I forgot to warn everybody. :) Will post lyrics and stuff later...

Existing At Extremes

It is here! Our new ep!

Be among the first to get it at tonight's show at Luna Lounge

Show, Show, SHOW!!!

Tonight at Luna Lounge! CD release party! Please come, we're so excited, it's going to be great!!! :)

"Existing At Extremes" CD Release Party!
8:30 PM, June, 21 2007 at Luna Lounge
361 Metropolitan Ave., Cost : $10

CD Release Party!

"Existing At Extremes" CD Release Party!
8:30 PM, June, 21 2007 at Luna Lounge
361 Metropolitan Ave., Cost : $10
With:
Red Datsun
Demetra
Red Calvary
(See our top friends list.)

Track List:
1. Stuck In My Head
2. This Happens
3. Don't Look Back (Ice Scream Song)
4. Falling Stars
5. Guiltless

We are also releasing Jawbreaker, our first full length album, recorded entirely by us in our rehearsal space which will be available at Stewart shows only.

Both CDs are $5 each!

You can pre-order tickets at the Luna Lounge website.

Samples of both "Jawbreaker" and "Existing at Extremes" can be heard on our myspace page.

Thanks everybody!!! See you soon!!!

What's that?

You can't wait for our new ep?

Well neither can we!! Soon my friends, very, very, very soon.

You may ask:
Where is it?
What's it called?
When is it coming out?
How can I get it?
How many songs are on it?
Can I buy lots and lots of copies?
Will this get me dancing?
Will my friends be jealous that I have a copy and they don't?

Other questions you may find yourself asking:
Do you have T-shirts and other merch?
Does your band need endorsements?
Will you tour overseas?

To be answered soon...

Don't forget- Thursday, June 21, 2007 @ Luna Lounge (www.lunalounge.com)
Doors are at 7pm
Tickets are available!

May 31st @ Mo Pitkin's

Last night was for us. It was for our friends, our fans, our crew. It was a party we threw in honor of music, in honor of New York, and in honor of the community we create around our art. It was HILARIOUS.

Have you guys ever been to Mo Pitkin's? It's on Avenue A between 2nd and 3rd and it's very cozy. There's an upstairs stage and a downstairs stage. The upstairs stage reminded me of Largo in LA on Fairfax. I don't know if anyone's ever been there but it's this really exclusive bar/venue where Aimee Mann plays a lot and apparently Paul Thomas Anderson hangs out there all the time. *shrug* Many lifetimes ago.

We played downstairs. After looking at their website we noticed that they have a lot of acoustic singer/songwriters playing, a lot of 2 pieces, 3 pieces, and a full house backline. That is... if you're using an acoustic guitar or an upright bass. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not knocking Mo Pitkin's. It was very quaint. And very good for what they do. But when I went to check it out... surprised isn't the right word... more like "tickled," I was tickled when I saw that the stage could just about fit a drum kit and one other person. (Perfect for Coach! Not so perfect for Stewart or The Quick Flings.)

Regardless, we had fun. But that's because we always have fun. Did you guys have fun? Coach started off the night- I'm pretty sure they opened the door to the opening drum beat of the first song. Pretty cool way to start, I think. And yes, they are just drums and bass, but Coach knows how to play a room and their sound is bigger than it seems. The Quick Flings were AMAZING. Seriously, if you haven't, you need to check these guys out. Talk about small world- the Quick Flings are Linda, (from Strictly Platonic, John's old band,) Mark, (from Tim, my old band,) Abbie, (from The Anabolics and friends with our friends Victor Bravo who we met through Saysha,) and Green Andy who nobody has any personal connection to- but he's great nonetheless.

This was Coach and The Quick Flings debut performances, and it was weird being the "old timers" in the crowd. I guess it has been a year already. Crazy! I think they both did great though, and from the comments I heard afterwards you guys thought so too. Solid songs, great attitudes, and lots of energy. What more can you ask for from a rock band?

We were honored to headline this 90 minute performance. It was so great playing with all our friends, there's nothing else like it. And we decided we were going to try something a little different. We opened with Dark Side, our new metal song. Did everyone like it? Did you like John's Flying V? It's actually Ryan's Flying V, but John borrowed it. In honor of the occasion. Maybe I'll post the lyrics later. It's a very dark song that came from a very dark place and makes me feel oh so much better.

Only Ryan and I could fit on stage, John and Saysha hung out in the crowd. (John had his own little runway to rock down.) What a crew we are- I busted my face earlier in the evening and had half a black eye, John got knocked in the face last week and his cheek is still all yellow, Saysha's new glasses kept slipping off her nose, and there were two very close walls getting in the way of Ryan's arms. Awesome! We rocked our hearts out though, could you guys tell? It was seriously one of the most fun Stewart performances yet. And probably just because we were there with all of you. Thank you so much everyone for coming out! We love you guys.

Our next show is June 21st at the Luna Lounge in Brooklyn. It's also our CD release party. Our double CD release party. We're releasing our live full length album "Jawbreaker," recorded in about 5 hours in our rehearsal space (rah!) and our professionally recorded 5 song EP which will be available through CDBaby and iTunes after the performance. Jawbreaker is only being sold at our shows, and we've only made a limited amount of copies, so get them while you still can.

Until next time folks...

Set List:
-Dark Side
-This Happens
-Consider Me Gone
-Don't Look Back (I Scream Song)
-Not That Bad
-Falling Stars
-Guiltless
-Stuck in My Head

Dark Side Lyrics:
Changes happen so fast, leaving worlds behind
Poetry meant to last, but the bright side is blind
When all worlds collide, we'll see who ends up where
It's this dark side of mine that keeps us going there.

Chorus:
Wishing I could pray for you, but finding nothing left
Knowing it's your own fault, but the pity hasn't left yet
Wishing it would matter what I did and what I saw
Knowing it's tomorrow and you're never gonna call.

And my only defense is I know me well.
Yes, I cared way too much, but it's so hard to tell
What is real these days and what comes from lies
You've left me with no choice and now we've run out of time.

CHORUS

Some other stuff
Some more chorus
Some more verse
And then a long drawn out ending. Rah!

New shows added!

If you haven't seen us yet, or if you haven't seen us in a while, don't worry! We're playing a bunch this summer:

May 31st @ Mo Pitkin's
June 21st @ Luna Lounge (now in Williamsburg)
August 24th @ Trash Bar

Come by and check us out. I promise you won't be disappointed. :)

Website updates!

Welcome to the new and improved Stewart website! We are still in the process of fixing it up, so if you don't see any info you know why.

Hi everybody!

Look, Stewart has a real blog! Crazy.

Help! Please vote for us and Fall Out Boy!

Hey everybody!!!

We just entered a contest to open for Fall Out Boy in Philadelphia. (It was the closest city...) And the way that we win is by our friends voting for us. Please vote for us at:
http://www.mylocalbands.com/promos/fobcivic/vote.asp

Thank you. For everything. For all your wonderful love and support- it means the world to us, really. :)

April 27th @ Trash Bar

Probably one of the best feelings in the world is to be able to spend an entire day with all of your favorite people in the world. My Mom and Dad called first thing in the morning, then some old friends I haven't talked to in a while. I spent all afternoon being girly with Saysha- we got pedicures and lunch and bought outfits, (she is the best girlfriend ever,) then back home to get ready. Well, after Saysha and I broke into her apartment because she forgot her keys. That was awesome. We're going to become professional criminals. Two sides of the same evil coin indeed.

We all met at the bar early- of course! It was my birthday! Chris and I played pool, everyone else hung out, got to chat and drink and have a generally relaxing evening. Social Hero and Black Taxi were there first- they went on before us and were awesome. Poor Social Hero singer man lost his voice and Black Taxi man ripped his pants. What a night!

Now, you don't know this probably, but we've been looking forward to this show since we booked it back in March. First, it was my birthday so it was guaranteed to just be fun, second it was our first local show with Ryan (who is awesome,) and third it had been almost 5 months since we played a show at home and we missed everybody. We've been practicing like mad, working on new songs, new recordings, new tricks to keep all of you happy and entertained. And we had also decided that this was going to be our best show ever. Or yet, as it were. What do you guys think? Did we do OK? :)

We pulled out the classics first- "Without You", "This Happens"- can I just tell you, the fact that you guys know the words to that song makes me so happy. Watching everybody sing it is the coolest thing I've ever seen. Seriously. Do you like the new intro to "Don't Look Back"? (Our beloved Ice Scream Song?) Floor tom, it's all about the floor tom. Go Ryan GO!

We played "Six Degrees" for Chris Neal- it's his favorite song and (again) he came all the way from Boston, so I thought we'd throw that in there. Plus we haven't played it in a while, and frankly, I missed it.

That was our first performance of "Who We Are" with a special interpretive dance number we made up the day before. The deal was I wasn't supposed to be able to see any of the rest of the band because I would just laugh the whole time. Success! I didn't crack up once! I did however, run out of breath several times, but that's ok. It's to be expected. I can't wait to watch the video to see what they were doing. I love my band. :)

We also played "Half Here" for the first time in front of a New York audience- that was the third (and at that time best) song I had ever written. I once played it at a party when I lived in LA and made someone cry. That was probably one of the nicest compliments I've ever gotten. (That and that time I played "Gone" at Matchless with Christian in my short lived Great Bellied Sea band in which I drummed and sang one acoustic song. I said, "this is the saddest song I've ever written," and the bar went completely dead silent to listen and the bartender at the end said, "that was the saddest song I've ever heard." Apparrently they were projecting a motorcycle crash in slow motion on the screen behind me. Totally by accident, but absolutely perfect. Go figure.)

We tried to rock it out for you there at the end- when did the lights go off? During Who We Are? That was funny. :) The sound and lighting guy at Trash Bar is awesome and did some cool spotlight thing and was going all crazy there for a bit- that RULED. I had no idea how much fun stage lighting at shows can be. I wanna play Trash Bar ALL the time.

I can't tell you how much it means to me to see all of you guys out there enjoying our music- dancing and smiling and having a good time in general, and thank you to all the people who said how much they loved it afterwards- I take these things very seriously and it means the world to me when you guys really enjoy yourselves. Joe, Collin, Rowen, everybody- thank you. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU. I can't say it enough. I'm so grateful to all of you and to my band.

We've got another show coming up at Mo' Pitkins with "The Quick Flings," our good friends Mark (from Tim) and Linda's (of Strictly Platonic fame) band. It promises to be yet another fun filled night.

Until next time...

Set List:
-Without You
-This Happens
-Falling Stars
-Don't Look Back (Ice Scream Song)
-Six Degrees
-Who We Are (special interpretive dance version)
-Half Here
-Consider Me Gone
-Try So Hard
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head

Stewart show at Trash Bar TONIGHT!!!

When:
Friday Apr 27, 2007
ALL FUCKING NIGHT

Where:
The Trash Bar
256 Grand St. between Driggs and Roebling
Brooklyn, NY 11211
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It's my birthday and we're throwing a party at The Trash Bar in Williamsburg. Please come, it will be so much fun. :) I can't even tell you. :)

With:
8 - Gravehaven
9 - Madison Ambush
10- Social Hero
11- Black Taxi
12- Stewart

Cost : $7

Followed by Rock & Roll Karaoke with DJ Flimflam! Hope to see you all there!!!

Love,
Stewart

For more info, please visit their website:
www.thetrashbar.com

April 8th @ The Poison Room

The day we'd all been waiting for...

The Poison Room is such a nice room, I think. High ceilings, big stage, comfy sofas and chairs, nice sound system, and TVs playing "White Chicks" and old episodes of "Batman" with Adam West. Sweet. We got there early enough that we all napped in the car on and off for 3 hours or so. (Special thanks to the Hyatt for giving us the code to their clean and spacious bathrooms- for anyone who wants to know it's "5, 3" for the girls' room and "1, 4" for the boys'.)

Everything went so smoothly- load in, set up, getting "dolled up," we ended up having lots of time to kill on the couches taking pictures and laughing about everything under the sun. It had been a long 3 days at that point and, as with any long car ride, we had built up enough personal jokes and we were sleep deprived enough that laughing was easy.

Chicks Rockfest rules. I was really impressed, actually, not only are the staff the nicest people- they were really organized, had their shit really together, and it was just a fun time. There were plenty of people helping and all the music lovers who came to see the show(s) seemed to really enjoy it. It kind-of inspired me to try to do something similar whereever I end up. (We'll see.)

We were on second, after The Trojan Rabbit (a female fronted Cincinnati based band, all of whom are super sweet,) who had the unpleasant job of warming up the crowd. As I said- going on first is tough. And these guys did a great job. We danced even though it was cold and we were tired. We like dancing. We know how to have fun. Good music helps too.

Now, this blog is going to get a little personal, which I try not to do, but for this I will make an exception. Being in a band is really hard for me. Or at least, being the front man in a band is really hard for me. It challenges me to confront a lot of deep seated stuff that goes on in my head and it's a constant battle, so much so that I wonder sometimes why I bother, why I do it, why I force myself to try when I never seem to get it right. When I feel incompetent and incapable.

Last night was different.

This was the first show I've ever, ever ever ever, done where I've not only felt completely comfortable and completely at ease on stage, I also felt like I managed to tap into my favorite part of me- my heart. The part that loves everyone and everything and makes everyone laugh and dance and sing and smile and just feel so warm and good inside. It's the person I wish I could be all the time if it weren't for all of my personal baggage, all of my fears and insecurities and shortcomings. It's the person I am and I know I can be, I just don't sometimes because nobody's perfect.

But on that stage in front of all you beautiful smiling and dancing people, I became that person again, and I have to thank you. You and my wonderful band. There aren't many people in this world that you can spend three and a half days straight with without wanting to kill each other by the end, or at the very least without feeling awkward or stressed or strained. My band is as close to me as my family. What is it that Guitar Hero says? "A band is the dysfunctional family you choose." Saysha, John and Ryan are all beautiful, deep, and magnificant souls and I am the luckiest person in the world to have found them.

As I said before, best show ever.

Set List:
-Without You
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back (I Scream Song)
-Never Again
-Try So Hard
-Half Here
-Not That Bad
-Consider Me Gone
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head

Easter Sunday

Best show ever.

April 7th @ The Smiling Moose

Music on, stuck in traffic, talking about nothing and everything, we were laughing SO much in the car. I was feeling really relaxed about everything. So much so that I completely lost track of time and we ended up having to take our food from Cracker Barrel to go for fear that we would miss our sound check/load in time. (Shout out to Chris from Cracker Barrel who dealt very patiently with our tired and groggy out of state asses. We ordered, then asked someone else to ask Chris our server if we could please have that order to go instead. Chris comes back and finds us saying, "Ok, I've just been made aware of the siutation-" Go Chris!)

No worries it turned out- we got there in plenty of time. Showed up at Tommy's house, were greeted with smiles, hugs and Indian food. Changed, ate, off to the club to load in, and then started to get settled.

This place had a sick jukebox! Ryan, Saysha and John were all crowded around it and must have put on at least an hour's worth of songs. Good thing as we were kind-of waiting around till 11 to go on. It was fine- I actually prefer not being rushed about things, it makes me less nervous. South Side is a very chill, community type feeling, part of Pittsburgh. Everyone there was watching the hockey game until the music started.

Ah... the music.

We haven't played a show in a long time. Four months. To the day. And we've never played a show with Ryan before. So picture this- first show with new drummer, first show in several months, and first show out of town ever. :) It felt good being back on stage. We were a little stiff at first, but warmed up quickly and all in all everything went really well. Great sound, great people, great vibe. I even sang Who We Are for our 5 minute sound check.

It's hard being the opening band, especially if you're from out of town, but fortunately I have the bestest big brother in the world and he managed to convince about 8 people to come down and join the party. They were dancing the whole time- thank you so much guys! You have NO idea how much that keeps us going- we feed off of it. And just to be up there and see so many people who we don't know, have never met before, and have no reason to care, dancing and having a good time- that's really special I think and it means the world to me.

Afterwards everyone was so nice- they said we sounded really original and (this I wasn't expecting) people were really happy to see girls on stage. Really? I forget sometimes how much of a bubble New York can be in this great country of ours'. I guess it's easy to take things for granted. Like female musicians who rock and make nosie and scream while playing their guitars.

After us were Five O'Clock Charlie. Sick fucking band! I love these guys! Super tight, super fast - after our set we were so motored up to party we were ripping up the dance floor. Then our new friends The Dream Intended came on, (who were not only nice enough to let us use their gear, they also helped us set it up and were just really excellent people in general- thanks Jeff!!! You're the best! *grin*) and put on a great fucking show! We were a little tired from Five O'Clock Charlie, but by the time The Dream Intended started- I knew that this night was going to be one of those nights you remember for the rest of your life. Where you're with your friends and your family and the people you love, doing the things that make you happy. As I've said a million times before- music will be the savior of us all.

Thank you everybody for coming out and making Pittsburgh fun for us!!! It was definitely a night to remember.

Set List:
-Without You
-This Happens
-Don't Look Back (I Scream Song)
-Never Again
-Try So Hard
-Half Here
-Not That Bad
-Consider Me Gone
-Guiltless
-Stuck In My Head

Ohio Show!!!

Calendar's still not working... :( Boo.

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April 8th, 2007
The Poison Room
301 W 5th St.
Cincinnati, OH 45202

CHICKS ROCKFEST
AAHHHHH!!! We're playing a rock festival!!! AND it's in OHIO!!! Hurray! :) (Someone's excited, can you tell?)

This is an all ages show as part of a rock extravaganza in Cincinnati, with 40 bands playing on 2 stages for 4 nights. So much rock.

Poison Stage with:
7:30 The Trojan Rabbit
8:20 Stewart
9:10 Backseat Virtue
10:00 Pike
10:50 Vanity Theft
11:40 Kelp
12:30 Haflife

For a complete schedule and bios of all bands please check out Chicks Rockfest website.

Happy Day

YAY!!! Yay, yay, yay!!!

Song Lyrics, Part II-

Here's the next installment: Real Dreams, Stuck In My Head, Ride The Wave, Guiltless, and No More Jealous Girlfriends. More to come!

Real Dreams

Outside showing pieces crafted from the art
Inside glowing red eyes focused on the dark
Clouds obscuring what everyone else seems to see
Secretly wishing that somewhere deep inside that's me

Chorus:
Have you ever had a dream
That felt so real
Colors bleeding through the thoughts
That you conceal
Where all sin is trimmed in gold
And flowers fill the skies
Pictures painted through the light
Of someone else's eyes

Disconnected, can't believe it's the same world
Mind's infected perception leading to betrayal
Sleep stained pillows harboring senseless regret
Circular thoughts flow, keep friends at bay and hopes in check

CHORUS

Stuck In My Head

Existing at extremes
Fists clenched through every dream
Sleep incased in black mascara on the
Back of the wand I used to charm myself
To believe that you liked me

Honest words fall from the sides
Of monsters running, flying high
Not knowing what is real
In the end there is no end to anything
Save for hopes and dreams
Starved senseless from the
Cold of you and me, not from the
Boldness of my actions or these screams

Chorus:
Stuck in my head
Thoughts racing constantly
I can't get out of here
Stuck in my head
Behind my eyeballs
These words never disappear

Too scared to try
Just let these things slip by
Running faster from the grief
That bubbles underneath
All the things I hide from everyday
In the hope as time goes by they'll go away.

Finding comfort in the chains
The expected starts to wane
Weakens in the knees
While madness starts to breed
From the hole that used to house my heart
Contemplating now exactly how to start
To love again and not again

CHORUS

Pressure building in this empty space
With each attempted escape
In definitions drowning everyday
5,000 tries lost, what a shame.

CHORUS

Stuck in my head

Ride The Wave

I'm so happy, you know it's hard to say
Just what happened, I guess it's meant to be this way
I'm so lucky, I know that you are too
For every different reason, right in front of you

Chorus:
Just sit back and ride the wave
Everything is gonna be ok

I'm so lonely, every single day
But just when I thought, it always had to be this way
You came along, and brightened up my stride
Your brightness burned, and burned away my pride

CHORUS

I'm so angry, I want to hurt myself
Drunk and stupid, and needing so much help
And just when I thought, I'd never be the same
Then it happened, my life turned around again

CHORUS

Guiltless

Focused on the floor, I relived my entire life
Running from the thoughts of my own worthlessness
Hiding from the sound of the voice running through my head
Living on the doubts and the projectedness

Thinking all the time that I was getting better
Maybe if only I was getting old
Such a waste of time all this idiot banter
But I guess I'm learning my version of bold

Pack all your stuff and get in the car, let's go for a ride
Skies are wide open, time for a change, time to say goodbye.

Caring way too much about what other people think
Since when did I care about such a thing?
You can fuck yourselves is what I have to say about
That and all kinds of other things.

Sick of feeling lost and alone in a small room
Tired of the guilt that comes from within
Time to tell them off with my new found aggression
I'll forgive myself when I start to blame them

Pack all your stuff and get in the car, let's go for a ride
Skies are wide open, time for a change, time to say goodbye.

No More Jealous Girlfriends

I'll take the high road
And you take the low
We'll meet somewhere in the middle
If you choose to go

And if this makes you happy
I'll politely shy away
But know I'm really angry
Cause I want you to stay

And I don't understand
Why I have to lose my friend
Third times a charm
Gonna tatoo my arm:

"If your girlfriend might be threatened
Don't bother talking to me."
Cause I can't stand one more friendship
Ending cause of jealousy